Ah well again , it's sunday.

IT seems that lately all the times i have to blog happen to fall on a sunday evening. Not a bad thing but still to me at least it is noticable. I really wanted to hit the gym this weekend a couple of times but things got in the way on saturday, and today? well i didn't have much time to either with all the catching up on 'chores' as well as an unexpected thing which i'll get to in a minute. I really hope that things slow down a bit when the people return from thier trip as it's been a nutty nutty freaking time here...

Today or rather the other day, I recieved a call from the hole. Those of you that know what i'm talking about, know it's the trailer place I was doing some part time stuff at that went from really intensive per week, to less intensive to none when i finally got a job that paid me a good amount that i didn't need to (or want to) work anymore there. Well this teaches me to accidentally answer my phone....or rather maybe it's to teach me to just say NO. I don't know why I said yes even. I figured it was a small 'favour' of a hour or 2 of work out there. Now even though I'm swamped, barelyl have time to make my own MEALS in a day, or have 3 minutes to sit on my couch, letalone hit the gym, I found myself saying 'sure okay fine'...WTF....

I really don't know why I did this but was convincing myself that this will be the ONLY time and so went to do it. Not even half way thru the 2 hour stint, the boss says 'so if we get you more things, you can do it up for us right?'....i say um no? I'm so busy i don't have time to scratch my ass...."not even a couple hours?" not really no....and i KNOW he wasn't convinced. I think i'll have to get drastic with these people perhaps. When even saying no doesn't seem to work, the only thing left is to BLOW up at them, OR, change my phone number...which is entirely a possibility...On top of that, I have the other place, the dance place asking for drawings soon, which yes the project sort of went on hold so i'm 'kind of obligated' to finish it, which is fine, but they are much more normal too.

Tonight I wanted to just come home, vegg, clean a bit more, make food, etc. I got a phone call from ash saying 'hey come over for supper!'...and so then I went there instead. Again I sigh. Still not a lot of me time. I'm severely lacking in the me time lately. My goal now is to win back some of the me time I once had, as it's severely making me hurt without it. I'm always running, always pleasing someone else, yet who trys to please me? No one. Though no one really has in hte past either, I made time usually for me, and time to speak to my best friend online, and lately I feel like I haven't allowed this me time to happen. I mean I still want to work, I still wnat to work out, and I still want to see Ash, but I must compress these things more too so that I can squeeze out some more me time.

Even right now, at 10:20 pm I KNOW I should get going to bed, but i also feel like staying up late...watching tv, sitting on my couch, etc. What will that do? It'll make me more tired tomorrow, and not even coffee can keep me from being more tired out. Then come the evening I'll be so dead I won't want to work out, I won't want to do anything...which isn't bad but as much as I love naps and sleep, they still aren't what I consider to be ME time.

I know i'm blathering on and on and on but hey, I can do that, it's my blog!

I have a couple other subjects but i'll save those for another time.

shit I just remembered I have no milk....ugh...do i run out? make the nite late and STILL have no me time? hrmmm...

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