To boldly go where no one has gone before...

Boxing day

2009-12-26T20:53:27Z

So Christmas has come and gone. For that I’m happy. No more crazy shopping, later on me and my girl will go out to get her presents, as she wanted to avoid the crowds, and we both know what she wants so it’ll be simple and quick.

So today, in another ‘non busy’ day, I finally got to sleep in until about 10am, got up, did some much needed dishes, still have a bit of cleaning to do which ill most likely finish after i post this entry, I got on my bike to do some much needed cardio as well while watching some newly downloaded shows I’ve been wanting to see for a while now, made some lunch, ate that lunch, hit up wal mart quickly to get some milk and bread and some batteries (and apparently I need a new smoke detector because the one that was said to be ‘working’ by whomever has been ‘inspecting’ apparently does not. On the way too, my brother called wanting to know if I wanted to hit the gym today, which I said sure why not. The time he wanted to go however? 5pm. Now I know and understand a bit why Dad always had specific times when he was working, to do things in and not much flexibility. I never seemed to get it as to ‘WHY ‘ tuesdays were say, movie nite, etc. Now I get it….brother wants to work out at 5pm on a saturday…what does that mean…that means that I won’t be making food until probably 530 and eating until about 6-630 if i want to make the food at home instead of eating out, and then by that time I’m sure ash will call wanting to do stuff etc…so I said to move it back to 4pm so it’s at least managable. I wanted to draw today too but I don’t think that’ll fit in (unless ash doesn’t want to do anything tonite) but yeah…again just another ‘non busy’ day. My brother, by 2pm when he called me, said he hadn’t eaten anything yet… so when i want to move the gym back to 4 from 5 is it ME that is not on the ‘usual’ schedule…or is it him. Rhetorical I know.

I haven’t done laundry yet either, as I see the one pile in a laundry basket I have out here. Suppose I’ll find the time to do it tomorrow. I really can’t wait to get on the road to Edmonton just to be on my own schedule more and to be less bothered by everyone thinking that I must just waste my day away if i can’t fit everything I want to do in a week, into one night.

I guess one of my things for this year I will try to do will be less bothered by people…all people, girlie included. Even the crack on christmas eve when i got off work early at noon, still had to run to one place, and such and she calls me…12:16pm. So you home yet? I answer no that i’m still driving home from work, and that I need to make one quick stop before I come over there, PLUs i want to have a shower at home before I go there (lord knows if i didn’t id’ get some comment on how i smell like a boy yadda yadda) PLUS i have to eat something….and that doesnt’ mean grab something that will take 1 min etc…if i want to make it at home…and she says ‘oh if you could , stop by the liquor store for some of this new beer stuff’ which i say sure why not. She asks me when i’ll get there…i said well i’d like to say soon but it’ll probably take me a couple hours. She laughs and says yeah i should KNOW that by NOW as it alwyas takes you FOREVER to get up here…takes me all of 15 mins to get anywhere but you? hours. I said well yeah i got some things to do and we said our goodbyes and hung up. I added it up and it would take me about 2 hours…or am i Santa Claus who can just go home, eat one morsel, in 1 min,so the dishes another minute, shower, another minute, go to the store, 1 more min, hit the liquor store another min and drive there in another min?….yeah. unfreakinrealistic. Just don’t understand how she doesn’t get the simple concept of time. Well needless to say IT DID take me 2 hours on the nose. And that was also with stopping at burger king to eat WHILE driving to get the other things and then coming home to shower and then driving there from here which is a 15 min drive minimum. Let me phone her RIGHT when she gets off HER work, with her being all smelly, and hungry and something to do and ask her to do antoehr thing before she drives over, and see if SHE can do all that in 15 mins.

She needs to wake up and move out and find out what life is all about.

Anywho… time to finish up some cleaning and such. I’m sure when i see her tonite she’ll ask if i’ve finished her drawing yet…since i’ve had all last evening after about midnite and this mornign ALL DAY to work on it…

Frustration station

2009-12-24T05:18:49Z

Super frustrated drawing tonight… it’s on the same drawing that someone has been wanting for a long time….and when I work on it, it’s on my precious free time. I got asked AGAIN if it was going to be done for Christmas…even though when I’ve showed her characters that i HAVE drawn, she has comments like ‘oh that guy should be bigger', that guy looks odd, this girl doesn’t look right’ and so on… Couple that with me NOT knowing what 'I’m doing in the whole Digital way of drawing things…and you get frustration from hell… She just reiterates that it’s taken me over a year or more to do this drawing…well yeah because I haven’t had a lot of time to dedicate to drawing… and now that I do the way that she keeps bothering me about it, it is starting to NOT be so fun…as i’m second guessing things even MORE than I used to. So what do I do then…do I fix the characters so that they ‘look more like hte originals’, or do i plug away, doing my best, and color it up fast only to get an ‘oh’ when I present it to her…

I’ll totally take it as a blow to my whole drawing process…and progress…so i’m just a weeee bit stressed about that right now. I mean i love doing the drawing stuff, experimenting, learning, and so on…it’s just when it’s a ‘do you have it done yet? why not?! you should have tons of time! it only takes 2 mins to draw a drawing..though I can’t draw a bit, but It shouldn’t take you OVER 2 YEARS to draw…oh and that’s wrong and that and that and that….

*writhes in frustration*

Mid week

2009-12-10T05:17:54Z

So as i sit here waiting for my hair to dry after ze shower at night, and eating my cookie crisp, I thought I’d blog!

Today at work was full of the typical banter from boss to underlings…one of my fellow underlings got REALLY frustrated…you can tell when the person puts on their headphones..now this is no wonder with the way things work at the orifice…i mean office.

We, while drawing, figuring out how things go together, how to make it so that the contractors can actually build what we want…come across key things where we COULD make the decisions, and they may be completely what the client wants, or what the project wants, etc..but we know better so we have to run them by the boss, which is fairly typical in an arch office. Now the problem arises when we actually NEED these answers. In the meantime our boss has been too busy to look at any of these things before now, some of which we’ve gotten the typical answer of hrmmm…I’m not sure about that…I’ll have to think about that one… which we all know that the translation on that one is that this answer you wanted? It’s now went DEEEP into outer space where, like us humans, can’t breathe and dies in the vacuum of space…until we ask for it again. Now we’re told that we’re to just ‘design it!’ or ‘pick these finishes! I know you can do it!’ they will say with encouragement…but we all know what happens then… we put the work into it because WE CAN do it and so we do it in an orderly manner, and move on. Nearing the very end of the project, where timelines are CLOSE, what happens is these ‘things’ are finally noticed, and we’re pulled back with a hey hey hey…why did you do it like that!?! who told you to do that!?!? oh i know i said go ahead and design it but i didn’t think you’d do that…I want something different instead…what? you are asking me what I want different about it? Wellllll…I don’t know…I’ll have to think about that one…just do up something different… This process can be done and done again and redone again until one’s blue in the face. In my field this is why you have people like me, just fire out the simplest form of a bad drawing, JUST to try to get direction for it…ANY…that the boss will actually like…so one doesn’t have to draw things up 100 times… ANYWHO…I could go on for days about the intricacies of an arch firm….but these things…are sadly…typical. In the ODD situation where the design IS kept…is’ by sheer elimination of all sanity in the person designing and drafting it…usually it’ll go thru 10 changes as explained above, but then in the last ditch effort, they’ll go back to what YOU had…though it’ll be THEIR design…and if you bring it up that you had that to begin with…they give you a compliment…and say WE did a good job on it…excuse me? WE???

Enough ranting. :)

So I got to draw more tonight after running out to the mall where I didn’t find anything to buy Christmas wise at least… I am redoing a couple characters after I asked a good friend’s advise. This is good! more drawing!

Well I suppose I should get my ass to bed…it’s 11:15…and I sense that I'll be knee deep in office coffee tomorrow…at least I’m all showered and have my lunch all packed…

MISC BLOG

2009-12-06T04:34:46Z

This weekend’s been pretty good. Drawn some, drawing right now in fact. Just on a little mental break as my eyes are starting to hurt a bit. So I’m still pounding away on this drawing that Ash wanted me to draw, and frankly i needed something TO draw….to practice in photoshop / illustrator, hopefully get my skills up, and so far it has. Bit by bit i ‘m learning new things so that’s a great thing. I put an inspirational dilbert that I ordered from dilbert.com up on my wall for myself. It’s nice!

Ash is busy at home studying for her finals coming up. Stressing but I know she’ll get through them. She always does.

She mentioned something when I said I was drawing… and it went like this…. “too bad it TAKES YOU SO LONG to do drawings…i have TONS of ideas to do…with the characters from this or this or this….” yeah….too….b….a..d….OHNO! Yeah like I’m going to do another drawing ‘for’ her again. Not when it’s treated like this one has been. I need to hone my skills for sure, but I also need to come up with my own characters, not just ‘draw’ someone else’s. Her idea is selling things at conventions…mine is possibly, but NOT of other people’s characters. Copyright and other issues that the others didn’t seem to have a problem with… Sure I’ll draw other people’s characters…but more as practice or in the ‘fan art’ capacity. I won’t sell them though…Yet another area where my morals get in the way….where others seemingly have none. So who knows right?

I suppose I should keep going on it. :D

Coffeebucks

2009-12-02T03:48:35Z

So I caved and was going to go grab a coffee to continue drawing…but instead I just bought a damn maker at wally world. Now hopefully it won’t cost me as much over the long run.

Talked to the girl tonite, and all was good, though she made a crack when I said that I was watching a movie at home about me being soooooooooooOOOOoo busy and that she talked to her mom even and her mom said ‘what does he have to be busy about…’ i told her to shut her mouth lol. I know she has her family to talk to but her mom has got to be a mix of a decent person and a TOTAL 98…and thing is this…um…girlies mom? Yer 55. Do you do the gym? nope. Do you draw? nope. Crochet? nope. Anything? Nope. besides watching dancing with the morons that’s all that you do to keep yourself ‘entertained’. That’s why YOU aren’t busy. I’m actually DOIN shit. lol.

Other than that i’m just continuing to draw and draw and draw…tomorrow i get to go for a coffee (or a tea maybe this time) with dad tomorrow, so that’ll be allright. I’m sure i’ll probably have a few hours afterward to keep drawing.

My mini goal is to have the character i’m working on, inked by end of Saturday. Then it’s on to the next one! i have 3 or 4 more characters to draw up and ink and then a big background scene and then put it alllll together, in illsturator, export to photoshop and then WHAMMO start coloring the whole thing.

I can’t wait until this is done…the good thing is that i’ll have a piece for my OWN portfolio as well as i’ll have a lot more techniques and kinks worked out from using my tablet so much.

Mondays…

2009-12-01T04:35:05Z

So today went rather well at work. Quickly, and a small ‘victory’ at work so that was nice. After work, I made supper and then the girlie called, and it was like i wondered last night…I HAD worried her. I worried her that she’d have NO FREE time to do ANYTHING once she gets out of school…and she said that she looks at her parents as well as when she was working nights and thought…why DOESN’T Jesse have any free time…or so he says… So I cleared that up and said that it is a matter of choices (thanks M) that one makes in their lives, of what to do, etc. I told her that right now she’s in school, and so I have time where I choose to do things too in my own life. I said that if I really wanted to, I could go work out every single night…but I have other things I want to do, and though I am trying to keep up the workouts as much as I can, I’m also doing other things..and choosing to do so. It’s a matter of squeezing everything else around them.

That was a good thing at least to get that all out in the open.

Tonight I drew some more, though didn’t start until later on, as the whole ‘doing other things’ namely dishes, an at home workout with free weights that i own and such got in the way earlier on. I did end up doing some though. I was live streaming a bit and then after a while I started NOT liking the character or the way i drew him…so I needed a new way to do it…He’s supposed to be REACTING to a little girl falling…looking through my reference materials, I didn't’ find any poses that would be a good reference…so I took a camera into a room with a mirror, set it there and videoed myself reacting as if i was the character…came back snap shotted a bunch of jpg’s out of the video and compared which one looked best for linking to that girl character that’s falling and I found one. I went in and overlaid it and started the drawing ‘over’ persay…I still have the rest of the other drawing in the background for reference, but it seems to work! The pose is MUCH more dynamic (something I need to brush up on for sure) now just gotta put the characters features on and it should be good. I really got to cut corners on this drawing as it’s been way too long in the making and also I want to get ma girl off my butt for it. So the more weaselly ways I can figure out things…the better…

I’m staying up later by about an hour or so and am going to attempt this every night…if i have to supplement my day with all day coffee so be it if it helps me get the drawing done.. and hopefully help me transition or at least start drawing more regularly than before.

Is it cheating to use myself as a pose? No one will know but us weasels…and all you out there.. :P all like 4 or 5 of you PLUS my psycho crazy ex’s that most likely still watch my blog. *waves at the psycho bitches*

blah blah freakin blah

2009-11-25T05:27:19Z

So it seems like a while since I’ve updated….though I’m not sure if that’s true or not….

Job front. I celebrate each day going into work with singing whatever song is on the radio but changing the lyrics to reflect the absolute loathing I have for certain people in my life. It’s a fun game I’ve done for years…keeps me entertained at least. After work I get out and in my car and yell and scream WOOHOO YEAAAAAAAAAAAAAH YOU #@$@#$%@!!! I’M OUT OF HERE YOU PIECES OF !##%r#$%$%^…It makes me feel good and somehow gives me more energy for when I get home.

Lets see….

Drawing front..

I finally got my livestream account working and not crashing so that’s a good thing. I can start streaming my drawing to whomever is bored enough to tune in. I found out by watching others…that it’s not that I can’t draw…it’s that i thought I was taking foreverrrrrrrrr when it just really takes that long to do the process..so that’s totally reassuring..so we’ll see.

I think I need to start wearing shoes around the house…My lower back seems to ACHE and I think I narrowed it down to not wearing shoes at work and then at home… I think…stupid body.. *punches*

GOOD NEWS!!!

2009-11-01T19:27:28Z

THE POTHEAD COW BABYMOMMA AND HER CABANA SKID DRUGFACE MAN AND KID HAVE MOVED OUT!!!!! HORRAY!!!!!!

jmg1701 @ 2009-10-25T23:03:00

2009-10-26T05:03:41Z

Tonight, we both went to an anime group, which was supposed to be meeting tonight...well we arrived with iced tea in hand as a gift, to no answer at the door...no answer on the phone...nothing...

So of course Ash felt bad, and let down, and so on...and she attributed this to 'her luck'..which I do remember doing that as well...thinking that I was so cursed...and hated...and well everything else negative out there...until I realized it wasn't me but it was EVERYONE ELSE that was fucked up... It may sound like a crazy notion...and you may have come to this conclusion too...but yeah...in my reality this is how it seems...

I have 2 trains of thought with this though...

I really REALLY would like to be wrong...or at least my pessimistic side to be wrong...

First is the OPTOMISTIC side of me..

They could have had something come up, and even though they said they'd email if the plan changed....they didn't.....and so stuff happens and hopefully it was just one of these times...and that the halloween party at their place with the other Anime people will go on as planned....as ash made her costume JUST for that as well...(well mostly for halloween but this is the plan at least so far)...so I assume this was just a hiccup and everything will go as planned...

AND NOW the PESSIMISTIC side....

The girl is a flake...she flaked out...and didn't bother to tell anyone...or at least the NEW member of the group....ash...and although it has nothing to do with ash....this person may just be one of those flakes...that heads up something and never follows thru with it...or puts no effort into it after they create it...and halloween will come around....ash will be SUPER excited...and get all dressed up and assume that it's all on....we'll go over all dressed up..to the door and ................................... there will be nothing.... in that case Ash will be DEVASTATED and what will happen from that point on will be allll 100% shit. We'll go back to her place, her not feelign like goign out since her plans will be RUINED by some MORONS and I'll sit there while she drinks some beers and feels sad and bad and depressed and think it's STILL ALL HER...with her bad luck with EVERYTHING....and not the whole fact that this person is probably a moron and a retard and someone that should NOT start a group if they aren't even willing to fire off an email as to the change of plans...

And I will be left to deal with the massive fallout for weeks to come. And will tihnk...THIS is why I have trouble meeting people...becuase the world is full of THESE types of idiots...

Now which situation do you think is more likely to happen....I'm HOPING I'm wrong but I'd say the pessimistic side will win out...again I hope i'm wrong...but past times of being run over, squashed, hit in the face and beaten (all metaphorically) teach me to have the shields at maximum and my photons torpedos on stand by for yet another ASS..

I am however looking foreward to monday at work..as i've now deemed the best part of my workdays is chatting to my friends online. LOVE catching up and talking. *clinks glass of ____________*

Funny ash stuff

2009-10-19T17:04:31Z

So...the other nights 'funniness' has been replaced with "oh it was so fun the other night!" umm you didn't think so that night...way to lie to yourself about it. Methinks you needs to be rolled over a few hundred more times so you can GET IT.

Add to that a conversation i had with a girl she went to HS with...one she stopped talking to for one reason or another... in fact I KNOW the reason. She went thru a stage...and didn't come from too rich of a family, lower mid class and she went all goth like for a while and I think Ash just went 'okay that's too much'...and dropped her. It's a total shame becuase this girl has always wondered why ash did that...alwyas wondered why she dropped her like a rock..becuase she's alwyas liked Ash.

Well we've talked quite a bit now and then too, seem to get along great and as per last nights chat see eye to eye on a lot of things in life...NOT regarding ash but just the types of people we like to associate with. There is more to life than drinking and doing nothing..or smoking up and doing nothing, or just talking about crap...

Another area we agreed on was 'PUTTING EFFORT INTO HOW YOU LOOK'...we talked about the huskies jogging pants (type that ash has) and how they are just UGLY...and got onto the LULUlemon pants and such and how they are SO much nicer, better, and make the person feel (AND LOOK) so much better. She's heard the small minded folks say 'oh look i hate people that wear those pants!' its' just pants...and they look good so yeah. small minded sask people. ash has even said that too...need i say more?

Anywho, was a good chat. I should go for a coffee with her sometime. I mean is that overstepping ash? Do I care? Should I? I mean she wants me to meet new people right?

Things are so stupid i swear.

jmg1701 @ 2009-10-16T10:12:00

2009-10-16T16:12:26Z

so lets try this again...after my igoogle refreshed my widget and erased what i was posting....

the friends debate... again....

so last nite i was thinking about the whole method of gaining new friends and thought of ash's.

Old high school friends.

she still has her old high school friends yes. most of them are nice but she has little or no contact with them so honestly i have those friends too...collin, anita, robert, etc.

Her coworkers.

why haven't i had coworkers to hang with, to do stuff with..to be friends with... well looking at her coworkers, all i see are people that get together and drink. do they do other activities? not that often if ever. all the times i've went with ash to be 'social' with her coworkers, nothing goes on besides we get there and everyone is pretty tanked and they just yap. no movies, no activities (mostly because all they are doing is drinking and yapping). is this being social?!? to me it's even more sad becuase most of these people are in their 30's and have children too and yet still just sit around and get trashed. to me that's not really being social...so strike her coworkers off her list...

Her new uni friends.

Most of them are around her age yes. What do they do? they go out and get trashed, or stay at home and get trashed or push each other in a shopping cart they found when drunk and the like... again... is that what's considered being social?!

she does have one friend, a chineese exchange student who is very nice and we've actually DONE things with her, sledding, decorating pumpkins etc. out of all her school friends, shes' the only one that ash has actually done more than 'drink' with.

Other than that though? she's really got no socializing skills in use. none of her friends are social either! yes i do want to find some that like to do things, but not nessessarily 'go drinking' becuase to me THAT IS NOT BEING SOCIAL!!!!!

*waits for 5pm*

Definition - drafting bufoonery

2009-10-06T16:25:59Z

Drafting bufoonery.

When drawing set is left unchecked by Architect and therefore items may not be as they should be.

wouldn't that be...architect bufoonery???

jmg1701 @ 2009-09-27T21:36:00

2009-09-28T03:37:29Z

Sunday night. Well I had quite a good day most of it at least, got everthing i wanted to touch on, done, talked to my peoples, watched some tv, did some much needed supply getting, worked out my finances and debt payment plan for the next while and so on. Went to ash's place to have supper, as her grandparents are over and her mom invited me for supper. She was , as usual when in school, busy working on her stuff. My plan to take my sketchbook worked out well as I sat with her for a good hour and a half before I told her I had to leave to go home to make lunch and such for tomorrow. She was miserable at the school work...she seems to think that the stuff that she's taking and ONLY the stuff that she's taking is the hardest things in the WORLD to take...any other career, any ohter person with any ohter schooling, simply can't have even close to the simlar amounts of work and knowledge that she needs in her field. I just try to be a sympathetic boyfriend in the hell she's in, but am not letting it go when she 'compares' the stuff I do to stuff she does as one can't really let that go. Sure, you're taking this schooling, but joe blow down the street that's working at the gas station, or lady cleaning rooms, or guy being a janitor...you don't know their lives and can't presume that you are both 'smarter' than these people or 'better' than these people simply becuase you are taking a challanging thing in school. I feel the tightrope tightening to where she'll let some words fly at my career (a career which i'm not even sure I care to be in anymore...but that's another blog) where i'll have to fire right back at her with my photon torpedo's as well. After all...YOU chose this to take, YOU chose the degree, and get it all at the cost to you of $0 thanks to your generous grandparents.

I dont' really k now what the point of my rambling is here, just more or less letting thoughts fall out of my head on the subject.

When i left at least she remarked how she's sorry but school makes her a miserable person. Was glad she realizes this enough to say it. I think before the talk we had, she woudlnt' have said it...would just have BEEN miserable and expect me to just like it.

Ulitimate tests will be coming at each turn, as i'm sure, and for now i'm still in a 'lets see how things work now that we got all that crap on the table' time period.

ON ANOTHER TOPIC...

A great friend of mine came up with a plan of his to order his life..to take control of things more, to take a direction and to help himself emotionally out too. I felt inspired by what he shared with me, and have the want to do it myself as well. I'm not sure how or what but it'll take a lot of thinking. These are the things I k now right now....

-I can only draft for so long. Afterwhile the work is mundane, respect is minimal if any, and raises are low and few the more a person is in the career.
-I know I DO NOT want to be an Architect. I'd rather drink Acid.
-I have to pay off my debts. This will help my freedom as well in this world, and ability to move around becomes easier and more fluid, the more financially free that i can be.
-I have to focus on myself...on my gymmin, and cardio...the bike is really helping me feel better so so far so good.
-I have to draw more and more and more. I mean if i'm horrible now, if i drew for a YEAR lets say..or an hour a nite for a year..what would i be like drawing in a year!? you'd think i'd be more confident in it, less picky, and so on. It's where i'm going to yank my hour extra per nite on.
-As silly as this is....I WANT to find some drawing group in teh city....kind of a group run thing..not really any teachers but ourselves. Maybe there'd be a theme for it...each week...lets draw _________________ and then help each other out. I YEARN for community. Also I want the 'community' to not be 65 and older...there HAS to be young people into the same kind of things..and not just going out to get TANKED.

where to begin....

jmg1701 @ 2009-09-25T15:16:00

2009-09-25T21:18:08Z

ANNNNNNNNNNND duh asks me why i printed out the sets as he hasn't arranged the meeting for next week yet...um because you TOLD me that you NEEDED them by friday mid morning and NEWSFLASH GOLFBALL HEAD I had them.

frakhead.

jmg1701 @ 2009-09-18T14:24:00

2009-09-18T20:25:04Z

Just becuase it's friday and this is a great poem by Fred Flintstone...

I love thee Wilma,
with hair like silk,
Lips like cherries,
skin like milk,
Your shell-like ears,
your dainty hands,
And eyes so black,
like frying pans

jmg1701 @ 2009-09-13T19:02:00

2009-09-14T01:02:25Z

This weekend has been quite good. Usually when I am at work mondays, and people ask the obligatory question of how was your weekend and even more prodding question of 'what did you do!?'...and the inevitible answer of 'not a lot, but enjoyed every minute'....and the funny thing is so many times people dont' seem to be satisfied with that answer, but all lin all I don't really care lol.

I hit the gym a couple times, with ash, she's sore as HELL becuase she hasn't gotten to the gym in a while. I never know how hard to work her though it seems to be okay with her as she wants to be stronger and push herself lol. I'm sure she'll be aching until about thursday lol.

Yesterday I bought my excersise bike for home, which i'm really excited about. I'm hoping it helps me tone up a bit, so we'll see. Still gotta move my TV so I can see it on it but yeah good deal at Costco I think. 383 bucks taxes in. Seems to be really sturdy and such too.

My place is in a perpetual state of messy lately, though i've kept on top of the dishes pretty good, its' just the rest that's messy...doesn't help when you uncrate a excersise bike either lol. I'M RUNNING OUT OF ROOM IN MY PLACE!!!! :p

I think I may go have a bit of a horrible supper, ie 2 McCheeseburgers and then bring home a coffee so I can continue to clean and hopefully read or draw or something to that effect.

At the end of last week, I was frustrated with work...moreso than usual, not so much with work but with the project I'm on and the way it seems to be going...I seem to have to back track 400 steps to make sure we tie in with Structural who has been really LATE on the game as they should have been the ones done first so that we could draw with them in mind, but now instead of that, i've been redoing and redoing and redoing everytihng to suit as new information comes in. I just hope that this week, I can find some sense of order and organization to it all and begin setting things up on the pages so that I don't have to move and add more things again and again....

I think that's all for now....:)

i love..

2009-09-10T17:22:32Z

i love trying to explain why my project is behind 2 weeks with no discernable deadline due to the architects, engineers, and waiting for info..without making it sound like its' thier fault becuase welll that is not acceptable of course....

jmg1701 @ 2009-08-09T09:16:00

2009-08-09T15:25:58Z

So the night didn't turn out tooo badly. they went on rides, i got to people watch, which let me tell ya...80% of the people attending the fair were shall we say..being paid for thru my tax dollars....lovely. there as a BIG police presence which is directly related to those lol.

I'm really getting serious with my food intake lately, i think it's thrown ash off guard lol. i'm not getting slurpees, trying to NOT eat donuts and crap at work (that starts more this week lol), eating more veggies, and not just JUNK. last year i bought like a bag of SIX giant spudnut donuts for myself...this year i still managed 2, and ONLY becuase it's the fair...but yeah. I'm goign to attempt what my dad does in a couple things...1..i'm going to try to do a nice brisk walk in the evenings before i shower and hit bed. nothing wrong with a little extra cardio, and 2, i'm going to have a 'sweets day' - though this rule WILL be broken on holidays, especially on trips to the states. :P. if i get sweets, they will be for that ONE day, and then i can pig out and get sick on as much CRAP as i want to. also then maybe i won't want any the rest of the week lol.

didn't get to hit the gym yesterday, but will today for sure in a while after i eat some breakfast and shower a bit.

I have made up a little home / office / drawing space kinda area at home here, and so far i like it. i even like how the little partition wall just filters the light thru in the mornings instead of just blinding ones self. here are a couple pics of the area.

My couch and coffee table and such is on the other side in a cozy 'tv/watching movie' area.

time to get ready for ze day!

jmg1701 @ 2009-08-04T21:04:00

2009-08-05T03:04:29Z

Zzzz.... I'm so tired. lol. It was a good day, I got to tell off my GM Dealer as they phoned to ask why I cancelled my service appointment there and got to tell them the reasons. No explanation, no attempt at serving me the customer, except telling me that they (magically) have a new service manager and that I should bring it in so I could talk to him about stuff. Told her that won't change anything and that I will be taking my car from now on to another dealer. She didn't like that one. She then mentioned to me 'what about warranty issues?!'. I asked what about them !? Shall I keep you on the list for warranty items to be fixed here?' I tell her no. Take me off the list. I'll go to another dealer. She got frustrated and let me go.

heh. Fun after them screwing me again and again...

So had a great talk with Anita tonight, alwyas enjoy our conversations. Also had a nightly talk wiht Ash while she's at her job. We talked for a little bit, but dind't have a whole lot to say, though we just saw each ohter yesterday lol so that makes sense. :D

jmg1701 @ 2009-07-29T22:24:00

2009-07-30T04:24:21Z

Not much happening right now. I'm tired lol. I will get to bed soon for the day ahead of me tomorrow. Tonight I was suppsoed to go into work and do some but decided to do some much needed cleaning instead, so i could work a long one tomorrow. My coworker is nervous that we won't (or I won't) get the project done in time for the middle of August. I will be doing a long day tomorrow, a normal day friday, and probably a lot on Sunday as well.

We'll see how it goes. I just wish i could listen to my own music there. the crap that they play on the radio is causing me and my other coworker to go MAD.

anywho.

tonite i finally hit the gym. it's been a while and man did i feel it. was nice to get in there and do it though. slow and steady and with less weights. that is also good as it will allow me to work tomorrow nite without feeling guilty of not going to work out. :)

hrmm what else is new....

can't think of anything!

nite!

FEEDBACK WELCOME!!!

2009-07-26T05:50:26Z

So....get this one...my car...today while driving we hear a KRAAAACK!....thought it was nothing. then notice, the windshield is cracked and steadily cracking....this to me is NOT normal for a windshield on a car that is relatively new.

My hunch is that it's (also) probably not covered by their bumper to bumper warranty and that I'm most likely screwed to pay for a windsheild. Goodbye $500 at least.

I SWEAR...I'm never buying a new car ever EVER again. My question is how the HELL do i get rid of the car yet come out ahead..or am I stuck paying this thing off until the end of time... Basically, since GMAC put the interest rate of 7.9% on it from the start, in over 3 years, I've basically paid 338 bucks every month...and only paid the 'cars price' down a grand...

ANY IDEAS ARE WELCOME....I really don't know what to do. If i sell the car, i'd still end up owing like 6 grand on a car that I don't even have since they sell for about 8 grand used. I still owe like 14...Do I pay as much as I can on it??? What do I do....

Sigh..

Ramblings of a crazy guy

2009-07-24T03:37:36Z

I had a pretty good day, pretty good week too. Didn't get to come online to chat as i wanted to tonight. I got a call from the parents needing my help with thier bathroom renovation, so went over with my drill as theirs is an old one that doesn't have much power to it. All I could think of, was how Ash remarked how my mom's sewing machine was crap, and how my brothers say the same thing about the other stuff my parents have. No sympathy at all or thought that hey....it may have been all they could afford...

It makes me feel lucky that I can afford a little of this and a little of that. I feel pretty good that i'm doing okay in life. People want to do better than their parents usually though it's not by any means a requirement. I know that is one thing Ash seems set on, but it's more a 'rub it in your face' way than anything. I think my brothers are headed on the same path too. It's a shame really as it's not a 'i'm better than you are' thing but more a 'i CAN make it' kinda thing.

I've been having a pretty lazy week so far, though more just 'not going to the gym' lazy, so i can sit and relax this week and go back to the gym and such next. I think i'm going to start doing that system...have one week of crazy busy, next dull and blissful. We'll see how that works. So far the week has been good being a bit lazier, as last was a blast thru a cannon. Either that or I remain semi busy for eternity lol...i'd rather take one than the other and so on.

Tomorrow I get go to a going away supper for one of her 'drunky' friends, which should be allright, moreso in teh fact that she's got plans to go to a movie with one of ther 'not drunky' friends at 8pm, so that's good. I may go to a movie solo since I probably won't go with them. OR I may just have a nice blissful friday evening...hrmm sounds like I know what i want lol.

I haven't done much drawing, but been reading thru my books, so that's also something I enjoy. I suppose I'm just rambling here but it's all good.

I wanna give shoutouts to all the ex girlfriends, and ex others (for one reason or another) that still stalk me on my 3rd or 4th blog...I've lost count lol.

FRIDAY TOMORROW YAY!

Thursday!!!!

2009-07-17T03:30:50Z

So today is an unusual day becuase I was out on the road for a work trip today and didn't get back to my place until around 7pm. After the long day, I decided (with some help) to go out to have a Tea and grab a bite to eat since I didn't have supper yet. I hit up Timmies, and while there, spotted this girl from across the place, toned arms, and then she got up and I saw her toned TONED muscular legs. I'm not even talking toned I guess, more the Tiny jean shorts, with the tiny waist, and the swooping of her thigh muscles and legs CLEARLY thickly defined with muscle. Now She wasn't a bodybuilder chick, but definitely has done SOMETHING to get that physique. Yet another thing that is telling me to go try out CrossFit. I've been thinking of that lately, as I want to go do an activity, possibly in a group setting, to both improve something, feel good, and get out. Life is stagnant at the moment, though busy, but the same old patterns of late are inspiring me to want to do something different. I gotta email them tonite and see what the deal is.

Other than that, I hit up teh shower before I left so I'm all ready for work tomorrow, and saw I have a missed call from Ash, which I will text her back, I SUPPOSE, that she can call me again.

Friday Tomorrow!!!

Wednesday!!!

2009-07-16T03:27:28Z

wednesday. hrmm...okie here goes.

So got home from work, it's been a long day. I neeeded to lay on the couch and relax for a little bit from the day as it was a long one at the office. Regular hours but long nonetheless. I did go to a BBQ with the boss, probably a good thing to do (as Michael said) and it wasn't too bad, but I was relaly looking foreward to going on the couch at lunch and just relaxing. At any rate, I did it when I got home. So 5:30 rolls around, 5:45 i'm eating my simple baloney sandwitches with pickles supper, and Ash calls. We talk for about oh i dunno 45 mins or so, and within that conversation, was the stuff in the last blog entry

Interlude.....

...and something that also caused my walk to the river tonite to be one of spacing out, reflection, and just trying to figure a way out of being 'the bad guy' yet again with her. She tells me how she 'wants to take a REAL vacation still this summer, probably camping, since she hasn't gotten to this summer yet". Meaning I didn't like vancouver and made it a living hell, so I want another trip MY way. I have no problem going camping on a long weekend or somethng, but lord knows that WON'T be enough. She'll want 5-7 days at a lake of her choosing yadda yadda, where we'll get there, she'll sleep the first day away, and do nothing but drink up and say how peaceful it is while I get sunburned. Again the only problem is this...Ive already taken as much time off from my new job as I can. I'm not going to ask for more time off, especially when there is this huge project, the BONUS project, that me and one girl at work have to get done, by end of august. Meaning there WILL be lots of overtime, hard work, etc. I'm not going to risk my new job just becuase she made Vancouver hell, and decided she wants another vacation before school starts. All I can see coming of this is that i'm going to be the bad guy because i'll DEPRIVE her and RUIN HER SUMMER because she never got to go on a RELAXING vacation becuase I COULDN'T TAKE OFF WORK etc....there is NO winning for me whatsoever in this and it's starting to be a pattern of insult, puppy talking, and YOU YOU YOU from her to me. I'm really getting tired of it, and I know it's only been a little bit she's been like this. That's what I keep telling myself too, but if i continue on this snowball from hell down the hill it will and will have to ONLY end up in one thing. Me getting the FRAK out of the relationship before I'm eaten alive. Too drastic? Should I stay and get beaten and faulted over and over and over becuase SHE wanted to be selfish once and now I can't live things down? That may work in marriages, where the man is trapped, but i'm afraid it won't work here. I'm not tied to her legally yet at least. So ANYWHO...back to my evening...

I get off the phone around 6:30-6:45, swung by my parents place to drop off some more dvds i burned for mom, and then decided that I'm going to go down by teh river for a walk and such. NEED to get some peace and quiet thinking time. Got down there, walked by the old victoria bridge and stoood by the railing watching the water on the river, while some very athletic tanned cute hot girls behind me jumped rope. It's sad all I could think of was my stupid situation but so be it. I moved and they eventually left, and I was left sitting on a bench down stream a bit, thinking more and more. Called my friend Janet to talk a little bit, get her 2 cents, for which i'm thankful for too, and carried on with my evening. I wandered up to the coffee shop, got myself a hot flavoured milk and walked back to my car, and drove back here only to arrive a few mins ago. This evening was relaxing but stressful beyond belief as well. I'm not happy I get to go on a road trip with work tomorrow, as I get to miss chatting wiht my buddy, but I am happy that it will be a mindless task that I can think of things while I measure up 60 some doors.

Time to hit the showers and then bed. Nite!

Tuesday!!

2009-07-15T03:37:10Z

I got home from work around 5:15 again, started my supper, as my ribs were already ready in the slow cooker. Did some potatoes and beans, and proceeded to do that while i started on some at home drafting. I was going to hit the gym tonite but didn't have time. My food was ready around 5:30ish just about that time, Ash calls me to talk. The nightly calls. Anywho, this lasts about 45 minutes to which i'm tryign to get off the phone so I can carry on with my evening. Not a bad chat mind you but it took a while. I sit down and eat down my food partially while i'm talking on the phone and partially after. I finish about 6:30 and then start up the work at home. I log on, and do my work and have a little chat (at the same time) with my buddy in joisey. After a while, maybe an hour and some, I get off the computer, and on the way out to run out to Wal mart, I put a load of wash in. I got in my car and was there by around 8pm. I DID remember what I wanted to buy, but they didn't really have it. I want an AM antenna for my radio at nights to get those american stations in. Hoping it'd help. I guess I won't find out yet...lol. I left from wal mart and arrived back home at around 8:35, continued on the work from home, till about 9:25pm. I had to run down to see if the laundry was done yet, as in are the people's clothes done that are hogging the entire 3 washers 3 dryers...the one dryer is finally done and i haul their stuff out, put my stuff in, and just as that happens, girl comes down, says how she was just going to take hers out, I politely appologized and she remarks to me 'thanks, is that all? did you get it all?' and looks in the dryer. Yeah honey fuckyouvery much. Anywho, run upstairs, and continue the drawing, put some eggs in to boil for my snack, and am currently eating them. I have some dishes to do still, from today basically, 4 plates and some misc stuff, which i probably should do now or it'll pile up....then the plan is, to get showered and ready for bed and then run down to get my laundry out of the dryer and go to bed.

NOT ENOUGH HOURS IN THE DAY!!!

ahem. Donuts tomorrow at work! yay!